So, you may have noticed a distinct lack of posting this week. It’s been partially due to the fact that my birthday was this week, and I’ve spent some of my evenings out with people having dinner and socializing. It’s also been partially due to a considerable amount of thinking. You may not like this.
I’m shutting my blog down.
I won’t be deleting it, I’ll leave it up so that people can still read it if they’d like. For that matter I may one day decide to pick up where I left off and keep writing. I’m just not writing right now.
Nothing is wrong, I’m fine, so don’t worry about me. I still have lots to say and lots to write about, I just can’t do it right now.
My life was a complete and utter mess when I started writing. Messy relationship, messy dramatic/toxic friendships, messy finances, messy everything. Writing was a way for me to get things out of my head, so I could deal with life. That and it’s fun, and I rather enjoy doing it. I’ve been doing it consistently for over a year and a half now. It became a priority for me, and in the process I met some awesome people online (you guys).
Life has turned itself around on me, and it’s presenting different issues. I’m in a relationship with a great guy, I have supportive healthy friendships, my money situation has improved dramatically, and I’m generally enjoying life. Unfortunately, I spend a lot of time not experiencing life. I spend a lot of my time online.
My number one priority right now is spending time with The Boy. Living on polar opposite ends of Edmonton, we basically have a long distance relationship. I usually only see him on the weekend. The past couple months that has gotten harder and a little more chaotic, because his father is building a cabin out of town and wants him to help. Basically, right now we’re seeing each other when we can. Usually I head to his house Friday night after work, and head to work from his house Monday morning. I always have my computer with me, but I’d rather spend time doing things than sitting on the internet. When I’m with him I’m more likely to actually do things.
The remaining time I’m at home is filled with everything else. Catching up on laundry, cleaning, cooking, lawn care, hobbies, exercise, etc… Or at least it’s supposed to be. If I sit down as soon as I get home from work, that’s where I stay. I really don’t get anything done. If I keep active at the end of the day I get a tonne of stuff done, but then I’m on the computer blogging later in the evening. Working with the bright screen right before bed makes it really hard to sleep.
I’m kind of falling behind in life right now. Because I’m only home half the time, I only have half the time to get everything done. Add in the occasional coffee or yoga session in the evening with friends and that’s cut down even more. I’m finding it incredibly hard to have an active social life while at the same time keeping up with things at home, because I’ve been making blogging a priority over day to day life.
Some of you guys reading this are superwomen. Working single moms who keep their homes clean while maintaining their blogs. Freelance writers who maintain active social lives while playing sports and maintaining their blogs. Students who also work and go to the gym frequently while maintaining a blog. You guys are incredible. I can’t do it. I’m a slow, rambling writer. Blogging for me takes time.
I haven’t maintained a steady workout routine since I started blogging. I’ve had a highly variable level of cleanliness at home since I started blogging. I’ve been making more snacks than actual full meals. Basically, I’ve been giving my online life a higher priority than my offline life, and I really need to give my offline life the priority right now.
I’m not saying that I’ll never blog again, I’m just saying that I’m not going to blog right now. If I come back I may continue writing about money, or it may be a different more all encompassing blog. I don’t know yet, but when I do I’ll let you know.
I’ll still be around reading what you guys are writing. You may even notice that I’ll be commenting more. I just won’t be writing myself.
So, this is me signing off. Thank you for all of your support through my journey to pay off my debts, you’ll never know how much it really means to me. I love all of you guys, and I wish nothing but the best for you. Thank you for reading.